Friday, June 29, 2007 @ 8:54 PM
speech day today!
but i didnt participate this year so i get 3/4 of the day off woohoo! :D hope cheryl, carmina, baby afiqah, sofiyah, bryan, khairi and big afiqa and anyone else who i didnt mention, had a good time (:
i went to yujia's house after school...actually no. we went with zhixin, michelle, janice and beeleng to uh -cough- eat. yeah. eat. mm. if you get it...then...uh...you get it. o.o anyway. me and yujia ended up eating KFC after -cough- quite a while. mmhmm. it was niceee haha. except for the part where yujia started to eat even before washing her hands ._.
then we took the excessivly long bus ride to yujia's house. or at least, to me it was long. according to yujia it was short ._. but it was long to me so i fell asleep listening to the mp3 player's music xD [no offence meant to yujia's choice in songs.] then somehow yujia woke me up and told me i slept till very erxin -.- what a nice thing to hear when you wake up...
then we walked to her house to play audition! 8k freestyle is fun hehe. too bad my com doesnt have a number pad...the moves were super nice for all the 8k ones...and the score was nice too :D keep winning aha...
then we went to take the bus AGAIN, and we bought bubble tea which was HUGE...like 1.5times the size of the bubble tea opposite Andess aha. so cool la! cause there were ALOT of pearls too...but it was awfully sweet ._< then yujia went for speech day and i continued on the bus home. and by the time i came home i had humongous ammounts of muscle cramps in my abdomen and calves, god knows why, most probably thanks to mr loke for making us run 20mins worth of rounds...non stop. which he is going to continue to do for the next few weeks. PE doesnt seem as attractive now....
thin lines. hazy thoughts. smudged relations.
ah hah. another one. you this time round. are you divorced from society? do you realise that there's such a thing a free will? making your own desicion? doing things by yourself? someone's lacking in some independence molecules here. whats even worse is that you're dragging along someone which has very little opinion about their resistance against you. fantasy world must be nice eh, thinking people like being dragged around by you. what a nice world that must be. all you. no one else to consider. fantasy is always nice. but the drop back to reality is your price to pay for all that dreaming. come back to earth faster and spare everyone.
yes you can call me crazy. i just might be :P
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Labels: speech day
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 @ 8:32 PM
i forgot how much fun having CCA is xD
first cca session of term 3!
didnt do that much though... just preparation for marryatville, speech day, theater outing and election! marryatville people are coming to Singapore tomorrow haha. then theater outings are going to be at the end of July...and the elections will be during week 8. must be scary to go for elections...and its hard to choose too. cant decide who to vote for...bryan, afiqa or aliya. hm...
today we had 作文比赛 for our chinese lesson...i wrote more than usual this time round xD history was fun cause mr yong taught us Reliability, so he gave us a timeout worksheet...and real timeouts! so nice and sweet hehe :)
then it was science...need to do this guava fruit thing o.o about the journey a guava fruit goes through when its being digested. weird project in my opinion...after science was reading period. nothing much to be said...then EFL! they did a combination of ATC's SYF piece + choir + chinese dance + malay dance. a bit weird...but still nice. Bryan was married to sofiyah o.o they claimed it was an arranged marriage LOL xD
you again. you betrayed my trust AGAIN. it happens over and over and over again and again and again. how would you feel if someone took your trust and crushed it under their heel? now the pieces are shattered and people are picking them up and its up to me to clean up the mess. its going to happen again...i just know it. knowing you that is.
and you. you think its easy being me? to be under pressure of everyone especially myself. if you think its smooth sailing, think again. im fighting it already. why cant you just let me fight it on my own. the more pressure given, the harder it is to make it through. when you put too much pressure on something fragile or soft, it will either bend, shape, or break. ive bent myself too many times. im tired of shaping into something that pleases all. i just might break this time round. and there's no superglue to fix it.
ive decided to pull myself out of the fantasy. better late then never. if i wait, reality will just hit me harder. might as well get it over with and find something to break my fall. not that there's anything around to do that for me. not even grass. its just me and the cold concrete floor. this is going to hurt...Labels: cca resumes ^^
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 @ 9:46 PM
school's started again.
here comes another 10weeks of hell -.-"
the time table was re-orgainized again, like it does every term. this time we end school at 1.10pm every day, except for fridays which is at 12.40pm. pretty good in my opinion. better than last term at least...
im tempted to change my blogskin again...its been..uh...almost 3 months already with this skin. i still like it alot...but i cant stand the grammatical error on the skin =x
today we had home ec! me and minying made "rich plain cookies". kinda ironic. rich and plain together...how contradicting. but then again alot of things are contradicting in life. hm. anyway the cookies still tasted SUPER nice :D or at least to me they tasted pretty good x) some got abit too brownish though...but we got them out in time so most of them still looked pretty edible...even my nice nice wu gui!! xDD
the cookies were tiny...so there were alot of them. gave alot to other ppl haha. all our cookies were sweeter than most of the other groups' cause i added extra sugar LOLS! but sweet is nice ma :D
yay the marryatville students are coming soon! they're arriving in Singapore this thursday!! but we only get to do all the fun hosting stuffs next week.
yay! lots of nice things to look forward to ^^
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YOU are the one who made me what i am now. paranoid. paranoid of everything and everyone. but innocence and naieve-ness will always be broken apart in the end. and you will be exposed to the cold society we see today. its called reality. even if you want to live in fantasy, you will always be brought back to the cold reality. the longer you stay in fantasy, the more it hurts when you get thrown back. and you will have to face reality all alone. it hurts more that way doesnt it. when you hold on to something too long, you lose sight of the big picture and you only focus on what you can see up close. you lose sight, and you lose your aim. you forget why you even started holding on in the first place.
life gets more complicated as you get older. more complicated. more confusing. more subtle. more...tiring.
complicated simplicities.Labels: school is baackk -.-
Saturday, June 23, 2007 @ 2:46 PM
today shall be the day of random thoughts, since i cant get my thoughts in perfect order. not that i have ever been able to...
ferris wheels. imagine going to ride on one all alone by yourself. no one with you. no friends, family, or significant-others. just by yourself. you sit yourself in one of those little carrige thingies and the ride starts. then you see people in their carriges with friends and family and other people. then you realise you're alone. that would be the epitome of loneliness wouldnt it....
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if a friend does something you dont apprecieate, or dont like, i think you should tell him/her instead of letting the matter dangle in mid-atmosphere like that, not quite on earth, not quite in space. if you dont like it, say so. or if you think it could pass, let it freaking pass and continue with whatever you were doing in life. letting it dangle in mid-atmosphere is the worst thing you could do. its between the kiddy way of handling it, and the adult-ish way. and learn to accept apologies and move on. even if it was just an ice cream. just dont let her marinate in her own self-depression/confusion. it sucks.
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if anyone from CFF is reading this, im taking my hiatus for a reason, as i told some of you guys, not just because i wish to copy garf. my presence shouldnt be missed too much anyway.
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marshmellows should be grown from trees or something. georgia says they come from marshmellow trees. she says you need vanilla extract, sugar, glycerine or something and the root of the powdered marshmellow tree. but i dont know where to get the seed from, much less the root, i shall have to resort to buying my marshmellows instead of growing them. there really should be a marshmellow cake...or marshmellow milkshake or something...:3
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holidays should be longer. i didnt even rest much thanks to all the homework. i dont think anyone else rested much anyway....
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i am out of more random thoughts so its picture time!
http://www.dragonflycave.com/wpay.aspx this is the webbie of it ^^
i did this quiz which was linked from a forum siggy...hm. mew. doesnt sound much like me...does it? o.O
yay i found this notebook at a bookshop! if you cant read it cause the wording is too small [my bad. but the notebook was miniature sized in the first place...] here's what it says:
Problem
People who are just NICE do not always get NOTICED. NICENESS is a very UNDERVALUED quality.
Solution
The NICENESS BADGE!!!*
Of course! why didn't anyone think of it before?!!!
*Also we could enter their names in a great book of NICENESS that everyone could come and see!
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yay for randomness in this world ^^
Labels: randomness
Thursday, June 14, 2007 @ 11:39 PM
i finally found something that i am able to do pretty well! snowman making hahas! :D pictures speak a thousand words, sooo...:
mummy and daddy's snowmen! :)
yujia's custom-made snowgirl! :D
yujia says that the hat of her snowgirl looks like its ready to swallow the snowman up whole -.- but its quite true actually...i made the hat too big x.x nevermind! its still pretty cute in my opinion ^^ hope i can improve on them in the future though...hmm...
we did the 2nd experiment today! today was cricket-day! they were kinda scary at first cause they could crawl REALLY fast [much faster than mealworms] and they could JUMP pretty high...but we got use to them always crawling out of the box and we used the cup-paper system to catch them and return them to their box. so it was quite okay in the end...and it turns out that they werent attracted to the light -.- so our hypothesis was wrong....aiyo. Yujia and zhixin kept trying to take photos while i played audi and hiccuped. and they were sucessful. darn.... anyway its not like they can actually DO anything with the video/photo....i hope x.x never underestimate the powers of yujia and zhixin. especially when combined X_X
but other than that...my week was pretty...uhh...predictable. sleep. wake up. eat. homework. play. eat. homework. play. msn. eat. tv. homework. msn/play. read. sleep. yeah. same thing over and over...not all that fun really :/
dad's already left for Boston, MIT, so he wont be back for another 2 months. 2 looonnng months...but time flies when you're having fun right? so gotta have as much fun as possible these 2 months haha xD
i knead the clay into a specific shape.
a shape that i think i like
a shape i think that looks good.
i put time and effort into moulding the shape
i try. i try hard. very very hard.
sometimes effort cant allow you to reach your goals.
i finish moulding the clay to the best i can.
it doesnt look good.
it looks awful. nothing like what i thought.
i wanted a pale green, but the clay is dark green.
i wanted a star, but it looks more like a moon.
its all wrong. all wrong.
i discard the piece of clay to one side.
i try my luck on a piece of new one.
was my mind playing tricks on me while i was working?
why do the pieces of clay disapoint me again and again?
i never found a "winning piece"
maybe i'll be luckier this time round.
so many things i want to do and say.
yet so little courage to make them a reality.Labels: snowmen :D
Saturday, June 09, 2007 @ 4:06 PM
YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME :D
tracy rae and georgia came over to do something for my birthday. we slacked at my house for approx. 1 hour then went to serangoon gardens' macs to eat lunch 'cause :
1. everyone was hungry
2. we couldnt decide on something to do that everyone agreed to.
3. we felt a need to get out of the house ASAP
so we went to macs to eat double cheese burger without pickle, with fries drinks. our usual meal ^^ and after much dispute we decided to go to Vivo city and then go to Bishan park to cycle/skate later. the vivo city thing wasnt agreed by all though. actually, same thing goes for the park thing. but still we all went together. we went to vivo city to buy honey senpai's bunny! <3 the cute pink thing....but when we got there they [the staff ppl of the store] said that the soft toy was out of stock and there was only the bag. which i didnt want. so we left the store empty handed -.-
then we went to the arcade next door to play! after looking at every single game there [which was mostly single-player games] we played 5 games of airhockey lol.
2 vs 2. me+rae vs geo+tracy. usually it wasnt such a good idea for this arrangement...but in this case it was, cause they won 3 out of 5 games aha xD
but still, it was really fun especially when the machine decided to spit out 3 extra pucks. which at one point added up to 5 pucks or something lol. you couldnt look and aim, but just hit which ever puck you saw first in the opposite direction xDD me and rae let alot of pucks in during the 3-puck-games though x) but it was still fun even though we lost hehe.
after that we went to the pet shop to look at all those super cute animals (:
but they looked kinda scared...or sad...so we stopped taking photos. and left.
then we went to eat ben&jerry's :DD their chocolate chip cookie crunch is super nice aha (:
tracy ate phish food, rae and geo ate something fudge something brownie. all i know that it was chocolatey.
then we took the MRT alllllll the way back. then we went bishan park woohoo xD me tracy and rae cycled and geo skated. we looped the whole of Park 2. played at the play ground. cycled again. saw a few dogs fighting o.o. played on a very painful-for-your-ass-seesaw. cycled more. realised that we had 2minutes left. sped back. reached the bicycle rental place just in time. drank mountain dew/miranda orange / 7up / all-of-the-above-from-friends.
kind of sad that in one whole year, we only meet up for Christmas, and my birthday. but considering the fact that we're all in different schools, have all sorts of different commitments...i guess its pretty good. imagine if we keep meeting up like this for the next few years till JC. or more. thats gonna be pretty good too ^^.
its possible.
anything is possible.Labels: my birthday ^^
Thursday, June 07, 2007 @ 10:23 PM
Today was super super tiring...cause my group did SRP today! We finished ALOT, considering out limited resources, which in the end still failed us. However, we still did reasonably well. We finished the sets for the Super Worm [o.o] and the regular mealworm. Which made up a total of 6 hours, PLUS extra time used for setup/clean up/trying-to-make-the-useless-circuits-work-time. so we started at 12nn or something, and eventually ended with me and yujia at 8.15pm.
The mealworms [big and small] were DISGUSTING. D-I-S-G-U-S-T-I-N-G. I fully take back what i said about them being cute, when my class raised them to learn about life cycles, in primary 3 or 4. These mealworms were either freakishly BIG or pathetically small. But both of them squirmed ALOT when we tried to pick them up using chopsticks after they decided that the box was too boring / when we had to put 30 of those little worms into the box at the start of the experiment. The scariest part was when we had to open the box after every 15minutes. You wouldnt know if some little/big worm would be at the lid, juuussstt when you decide to pry it open. scary.
YAY TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAYY :D cant wait aha. actually i dont need to wait so long. just another 1hour and its official WOOHOO! no more 13! 14! (: you can call me crazy or high or hyper for all you want. i wouldnt care xDD But if you care to use the logical part of your brain to think about it...there isnt much difference really o.o what REALLY makes a difference is your mentality in life...and that doesnt really come in years. Maybe someone older than you might have a lower EQ, or be less optimistic/pessimistic/whatever than you, or maybe someone younger than you might have a better insight on life [highly illustrated when you play MapleStory -.-]
But i wont be thearatical at this point of time aha xD
cant wait for tomorrow when i get to see Rae, Tracy and Georgia again. quite a long time since i last saw them...=/ i miss all of my primary school friends LOTS. not many occasions where i can see them....and Samya just moved away to India. Permantly D: but at least she'll be back for holidays and stuff ^^
and now i shall spend my last 45minutes as 13 slacking away (:Labels: bugs and birthdays(:
Wednesday, June 06, 2007 @ 10:49 PM
im reading. im seeing where i went wrong. where i made mistakes. so big a mistake that it impacts the present. the future. i regret. i hate where i am now. i blame only one person. me. i hate myself for it. if i had done things differently, maybe i would be in a brighter place. its all my fault. no one else's. and now its already too late. too late to fix anything that i did. everything is wrong. it went out of line. what i did was out of line. i should have done things right. i shouldnt have avoided the truth. if i did, i could have done better. if i had done better, things would have been different. i would be living differently. i wouldnt be living the sorry excuse of a life i have now. i would have different ways of handling things. i wouldnt be running away. i wouldnt be lying my way through life. i wouldnt be living a life of deceit and mis-trust. i might have more courage than the person i am now. i would have had better character than the person i see in the mirror today. i would be different. i wouldnt be a person that i lie to everyday in the mirror, thinking things that are lies, saying things to others that are pieces of fiction woven by my imagination. i tried to escape reality. i failed miserably. now i have to face reality and look it in the eye. i have to face everything that i did wrong, or i will continue on the twisted path im already on. if i do that, im going to regret my life. im going to regret more choices, more words...my brain says that i cant do that. but yet im still living my life the way it was before. when i try to conform, words and thoughts are thrown back to me. im trying. i really am. i want to change. but its too hard. it hurts like the sting of salt being thrown onto a fresh wound. it cuts into your very soul, your very existance. but if you dont keep on going, the wound will never heal. it might get an infection and your arm will have to be amputated. or worse. if you keep on going, the wound will hurt but it shall eventually heal and you can carry on with life the way it was before you did whatever caused that wound. or sometimes you dont learn, and you go and scrape yourself up and get yourself another wound. then you have to start all over again. and its going to hurt twice as bad as the first time, the second time round. which route to recovery will you choose? both hurts. one heals. one keeps on hurting you till the very end. i choose mine. im still working for it.
but maybe its already too late.
congradulations to anyone who understands what i wrote.
'cause i sure dont.Labels: regrets.mistakes.anew.
Monday, June 04, 2007 @ 12:17 PM
today's band concert thing was FUN (:
there were lots and lots of people who came...
and i went with michelle and yujia.
the concert was loonnngggg
it went 37minutes overtime according to the hall clocks -.-
cause the alumni kept asking for encores.
even when the whole audience was silent.
but still, it was nice ^^
some of the songs were really loud...and scary.
i almost fell asleep at one point then the band crashed the symbols[sp] and i woke up zzz...
West Winds also came to perform, and they werew SUPER LOUD
but every one of their songs lasted 10minutes or so.
impressive. can continuously play for 10minutes++
and then after all the encores, the thing finally ended at 8.07pm or something.
and by the time we were out of the toilets and on our way it was 8.20+ already -.-
and we took pictures of our shadows!
i didnt know you could do that :D
so me michelle and yujia took a picture of all our shadows side by side!
it looks good (:
the 3 of us walked to the MRT to get to J8 for late dinner
and michelle kept saying that "walking there is super 浪漫" aha.
then we finally got to J8 and went to eat at the food court.
Pepper Lunch is niceeeeeeee <3 and michelle fell off the chair after force feeding by yujia chicken rice is DANGEROUS xD then yujia and michelle came to get the soap basket even though its kinda squished at the sides... weird. this world has weird people. but they make life fun (:
asliceofyourattentionLabels: band concert 07 (:
Friday, June 01, 2007 @ 9:27 PM
YAY!!
the senior's farewell party was a SUCCESS!!
all the hardwork paid off woohoo!! :D
all exco went there at 8am to cook.
then we realised, we didnt really know HOW to cook.
so afiqa called her mom and she came to help us cook the beehoon hahas
then we went to design the "ze masquerade" words for the flybar!
the letters i decorated look lopsided -.-
then we cleared up and went to the hall!
the hall looked REALLY NICE!
thanks to everyone who helped to decorate the chairs and the tables and [especially] the entrance!
then alot of us went backstage to start sticky-ing the words "ze masquerade" so we could pin it up onto the flybar.
didnt make that much of a difference anyway, cause by the time the whole party ended, we were only left with the words "E" and "U" on the board x)
thenn....we ended up having sakinah sing "a whole new world" for us!
she has a really really nice voice ^^
then me and cheryl went down to change and met minyi along the way.
the black dress was hard to wear.
or at least hard for someone who almost never wore a dress out of her own will for the past 6-7years or so.
then we went back up, and sooner or later, the seniors came!
then they sat on the left, and everyone else sat on the right.
then the teachers and afiqa and aliya gave the masks to the seniors.
one senior to one mask.
hand painted by exco
damn proud :D
then after that we had a slideshow
which had pictures of our seniors and stuff.
thennnn....it was time for the food!
lots of people brought different things, so we had ALOT of different and nice foods ^^
then i went with bryan and carmina to the control room to play songs and get people to dance :D
didnt really work till we got mrs kamal and mrs lee and miss lee to go start thing up
then EVERYONE [almost] went onstage to dance
super cool :DDD
then we had the last song and then seniors said goodbye and stuff...
saddening ):
then we took a CCA photo!
took lots of shots haha :)
then we cleared up went off.
when me and carmina and sylvia and sakinah and hadirah went opposite, prakash and khairi were playing with water balloons.
which looked sick somehow.
then the balloons burst all over the floor aha :D
then we went opposite to help guard bryan's cooler while he went to search for his missing hp.
then vicknesh came up with alot of funny theories about what happened o.o
1. the phone dropped onto a stray cat then the cat picked the phone up cause it wanted to call its country cat friend for a date. o.o
2. the phone dropped it into a drain and it got up and walked home by taking public transport but it couldnt get onto the but cause it didnt have coins or an ezlink card so it couldnt pay for the fares, and so the bus driver didnt let it onto the bus so its stuck. O.o
3. god wanted bryan to "start anew" with his handphone and so he made it get lost and so bryan had to get a new one. O.O
4. she drank the handphone which caused her current high/drunked-ness. XDD
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